Since her youngest son''s tragic death in 2002

Bonnie Brown has learned there is more to this life and to us than our human minds can understand. This knowledge didn''t come in an "aha!" moment or an epiphany of understanding. It has come about as the result of an ongoing journey to "find" her son. Unwilling to be a victim and allow the all encompassing grief she was feeling to swallow her up, Bonnie Brown set out on a journey to "find" her beloved Cody. She refused to believe that he could be gone, extinguished as if he had never existed.

She was certain of his physical death. She had sat and watched unflinchingly as the nurse removed him from the ventilator; the machine that had served as the only link between him and physical life. She heard the machine as it breathed for him one last time. She stroked his eyebrows and kissed his face and felt the absence of that energy we call "life".

Where had that energy gone? That energy that is a person''s essence, that energy that makes an individual unique. That was the part of Cody she was looking for. This is the story of that journey.