Get this, I''m supposed to be starting a journal about "my journey." Please. I can see it now: Dear Diary, As I''m set adrift on this crazy sea called "life" . . . I don''t think so.

It''s been seventy-five days. Amy''s sick of her parents suddenly taking an interest in her.

And she''s really sick of people asking her about Julia. Julia''s gone now, and she doesn''t want to talk about it. They wouldn''t get it, anyway. They wouldn''t understand what it feels like to have your best friend ripped away from you.

They wouldn''t understand what it feels like to know it''s your fault.

Amy''s shrink thinks it would help to start a diary. Instead, Amy starts writing letters to Julia.

But as she writes letter after letter, she begins to realize that the past wasn''t as perfect as she thought it was—and the present deserves a chance too.