My Testimony of Grief and Hope

This story is my testimony of how, after suffering great personal losses—five family members in two and a half years, including the loss of my spouse of thirty-one years, which was the most devastating loss of all—I was resigned to end my life. My story takes the reader through the darkest moments in dealing with grief and the quest for our purpose in life. I wanted to give a raw, honest account of my feelings so I held nothing back. My story will take you through my heartache, pain, and thoughts of suicide with many twists and turns. It also is a story of how God came to me through my grieving process a year and a half after my loss and saved me. Through my testimony, I hope to help others, who have suffered deep, emotional losses, understand that there can be meaning, purpose, and yes, even joy to life with a personal relationship with God through Jesus Christ.